Detox

When nights become too quiet, I cant help it to feel lonely.

Loneliness is the most fearful disease (to me atleast, or to those single ladies out there, who's trying hard to stay strong), which could change one's perception, thinking, moods, and life. So I have been trying to fight this disease for years..and I could say that, I did well..

Until lately, even after the joyous nites of head banging and stuffed gossips, I still came back feeling empty, and the silence, and the darkness of the nights..they are just sooo cruel to me..

Every night, like a little ritual that I perform at my small little balcony.. I would just sit there, looking at the sky, counting the stars, sniffing the air that once I found so breathtaking, and with mute surrounding..my mind wanders around, thinking of how did I get here today, what my past has brought me into, and what my future holds for me..

With my detox-ing ritual every night, I think I have found a key to my emptiness. That key, I will use to open a new side of my life...and may god will always be with me..to brighten up my days whenever it gets blurry.. Insyallah.. :)