I told him...

I finally found my words..which were lost in the tears and the pain. I was too sad, too tired to tie up my thoughts, so I just let the truth passed me by..with ONE hope..the hope of, I will soon forget..
But I was wrong.. I was never healed..It got worse as I have to bear the impression, the disrespect, and the hurtful words by myself..alone..
The truth wears me off.. I hold grudges, and I become bitter and bitter everyday..

And for sooooo long,years long..I have ignored my thoughts coz I was too sad to search for the right words to express what I really felt and what I've really done..Everytime,it was impossible for me to even finish up my thoughts, coz the truth really hurt me..the unbearable pain feels so real everytime my thought lingers the "unspoken truth"..


But today, I'm glad that I told him..He knows now..

Like a narrator telling her story, my words came smoothly and sincerely from my heart..and when he listened, and understood..I felt soo light..I was nearly flying..I felt like my soul has found me back..I've been wanting him to know exactly how I felt..but I never got thru..but today..I know he understands and he appreciates..

That's all I want..to be lifted up from the very bottom, to be free from the "unspoken truth", to be out from the grudges..and to be told, that what I did, was a noble thing..and what I did, he will always be thankful..so that he knows..I'm not an evil person..

Not asking any rewards in return, I just hope that he will always remember "our dear secret"..

he told me..

he told me..he will still be there

he told me.. he will make me feel secure

he told me..i should be happier

he told me..i should be stronger

he told me.. he will be near

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im at the other end.. would he keep his words this time?