L.O.V.E

I thought I knew the meaning of love..I thought I have found my true love..I thought I understand love and I thought I have given my best love..

Have I been in love? The question should be have I been out of love? :) I have been in love for a million time but never I have less to give for every love I found..Im happy just thinking about how beautiful love could be and how special it can make me feel..to describe love, I need not a page..I need endless pages where I could write how each and every moment of time in love make me feel alive..

I should thank for those loving guys that I had, that shared with me the finest love one could have. Started with a tall, dark and handsome guy, which was my 1st crush back there in school..he taught me how to appreciate myself and to be independent..

Then a fair, sexy sporty rugby player came around..gosh..he taught me how to be playful but yet loyal to each other, he taught me about sincerity and forgiveness..

Later came a tall, innocent engieneer, shared with me about the values of a relationship, honesty and understanding..

After that, came a guy who taught me to be truthful about myself, and make me realized my self worth..

Again, love found me..and this time with a charismatic, mature guy that caught my eyes at the first time with his pure genuine smile..he taught me the power of love, the meaning of sharing and introduced me to H.O.P.E

Love has made who I am today, it is the reason I feel excited every morning knowing that today would be the day love will find me again. I have loads and loads of love to give..and I am not scared of giving..and I know those guys were not the last guys that I would love..

I've made a promise to myself, I am still not giving up on L.O.V.E. I will love, be loved and share my love with the one very soon.. Love is just so beautiful that I will never let go, even that takes me to go through a great extend of pain.. I have gone through that and done with it..Now is my time to just be brave to face whatever in front of me and never be scared to be hurt again.. (what is the worst thing could happen after what I have gone through??? ) Nothing!

So..welcome love...and thank you love..

A splash of moment

It has been a month since he left..

At this exact date last month..he sent me few pages of sms to notify me that our 5 years 8 months relationship/1 year 11 months of love sharing ends. With just paragraphs of words..he shut me off from his life..

With no hesitation and regrets, he pushed me away from his world..

My heart sank with tears, the wound will heal one day..but the scar will remain forever..