Sampai bila dia nak mainkan hati ku ini? Sampai bila dia hanya hadir dalam hidupku bila dia rasa aku diperlukan? Sampai bila dia hendak persendakan perasaan ku? Sampai bila dia nak remukkan hati ku? Sampai bila agaknya?

Aku menyesal? Perlu kah aku menjawabnya??

Do you still love me? Itu yang dia tanya.. Ape makna cinta pada dia? Di mana letaknya cinta ku? Semesti nye di aras yang sangat rendah kan..supaya boleh dia pijak-pijak..

Layakkah aku dilayan begini? Haruskah aku menghadapi ini lagi?

Bangga kah aku dengan hidup ku ini? Tidak sama sekali..kosong.

mayday mayday..

For these few nites, have been dreaming about oceans, waves..and big waves! last 2 nites was d scariest..I dreamt about tsunami..I was with few of my frens..and we were swimming in d ocean..beautiful scenery..we were all laughing and shouting and teasing each other..

Then I decided to walk to the beach..one of my frens followed me..then we found a wall, a thick wall..then we were wondering,why la the wall is here?? Straigtaway, I wanted to tell my other frens which were still swimming..then I saw a very big wave ahead of me..

Automatically, I find cover..standing behind the thick wall..and whoooossshhh, the wave slammed the wall (luckily enough, the wall was really strong)and I could see my other frens were swept away by the raging water...and I was in teribble shock..

The wall has saved me and 1 of my fren..

My alarm clock woke me up at 5.05 am.. since then, I wonder..what is God trying to tell me?

he he he

As some people say.."Love urself truly, then others will love u unconditionally.."

I believe in that..and I'm learning to love everything about myself..my flaws,my imperfection, my beauty, my body, my potential, my self everyday..

And if anyone sees that I'm beautiful, and can deal with my imperfection..I shouldn't say NO rite..I should just accept it and smile over it..

Mr cayanne is always consistent..and RF is learning..Im trying to open up here..hihih..

Well, terawih together will definitely be fun!!

My new adventure..

hiii....

So excited to share abt my new adventure..new thrill in my life..jeng jeng jeng...

Who could ever imagine that I would love to do this?
Who would ever think that the queen now is excited and willing to learn abt this?
What in the world has happened to her?
What breaks the spell?

Hahahaha...

Im so thrilled to share that..I CAN COOK!!!! (atleast now I can eat what I cook.. siriusly!)

Started with siang ikan..used to be the most torturing time for me the last time..the smell, the blood, the slimy2 thing..the sisik..eeeuuuuu....and I used to take hoursss...I really mean it..HOURS..until the ikan jadi lembik n all the tulang came out..(no kidding k)

But surprisingly, last few days, I managed to cut the "siang" time tremendeously..and I no longer rasa nak muntah when I smelled the fish...yeayyyyyyy!! I cooked singgang ikan, sotong masak asam (yeaa..1 question..are we supposed to take out the purple color skin off the sotong?), ikan goreng (this one, still tak pass..no doubt the taste was superb, but the process of frying them, really make me thinking whether I should fry ikan again or not..the minyak meletup like gunung berapi marah u know...scary..) and sambal belacan..(a bit masam tho) :)

and yesterday evening, I feel like eating some sweet dessert..bubur cha cha..I went to the shop, and got all d ingredients ready..again to my surprise..the process is sooooooo easy..and the taste????hehehehhe...I love it..every bit of the taste..I would say, I made an excellent bubur cha cha.. :) *smile proudly*

I ate the bubur cha2 for my evening tea yesterday, my bfst this morning, and went I came bck from a super hectic day from office today, the 1st thing I did, was to reheat my bubur..and trus have them straight while berasap asap tu..nice...and now, still left a little portion,the last one..for my supper.. :) happy that it tastes sooooo good, but afraid that I mite not be able to get the same taste again on my 2nd attempt... :(

Am planning to cook some other recipes for my bukak puasa..and mb sahur.. cant wait to cook and let's enjoy ramadhan.. :)