A tribute to an amazing story teller..

Here I grieved a lost of a great film maker, Y.A. I have never expressed my fondness about her excellent films to anyone, but after knowing that she has left us forever, and the thought that I will not be able to watch her superb work anymore, I think she deserves my two thumbs up for all her work and the joy that she has given me through her stories..

She speaks through her films- honest, blunt and non superficial. That’s what I respected most about her, she was not afraid to speak up the truth, she revealed the reality in the most translucent way.. I adore her truthfulness ..Started with Rabun, she catches my attention, the scene where an old couple still teasing each other and taking their shower together..that really stayed in my heart. Silently, she drew a dream in my mind..Yes, she has planted a dream in me..I want to be like that old couple..loving, conservatively caring, crazily romantic in their own ways, and I do dream to take my shower with my hubby everytime we have the chance.. :)

Then Sepet came along, a love story about a Malay girl with a Chinese boy. I cried over this movie everytime I watched it. She managed to capture my heart again. This time I really felt for the love between Orkid and the boy. I love her way of making the scenes and the love looks so sincere and true. I cried because I know that, that kind of love is the kind of love that I always want to have..but like Orkid, we both lost our greatest love and we have to endure the pain alone all by ourselves..

Gubra..I enjoyed her way of telling the world, that man could be jerks sometimes.. and there’s always hope of finding true love again. She taught me not to be afraid to look back to the worst nightmares, to be brave to face the past and deal with it, to walk the memory lane slowly, then say goodbye to each memories...So then, I will not be afraid to walk tall, and to look for love and be loved again. Just like how Orkid did.

She has indirectly given me the guidance and lights that I needed at that time. She has painted my dreams back. And because of that, she earned my respect, my salute and my prayers..Al-fatihah to her soul, may Allah bless you, my dear story teller..

(And I honestly think that she has lived her life to the fullest, she has a loving husband, a superb career that she enjoy doing, she has the opportunity to share her views, passions and love with the world and let the world see everything through her eyes..I dearly think that, she has a wonderful life..and I am grateful that she was given all that blessing, coz she really deserved it..)

just a piece of my thoughts..

far and away.alone and confuse.hurt and sick.tired and bored.

Words can create such impacts to me..words are so powerful, that they could create or change my emotion and mood for that day. I do agree with the saying, 'Silence Is Golden'. I do think that I should talk less sometimes..and I do think that people should talk less about me too..Some people are so mean and just say cruel things to satisfy their own emotion's needs, without thinking about how one should feel, and how one should handle it. I want to stay away from this kind of people..too much negativity..too much pain to endure..I give up.

last year..

Last year..at this same date..I first met Alfie.. :) This time last year, he was selected by Him to be inside me..and even being in unknown place, he was all good, well-mannared baby..No morning sickness, just some back-ache and tiredness..

And I was having difficulty to sleep..that's all..the rest was just perfect..healthy baby, healthy mommy..and due to my restless looong nites, I spent more time talking to Alfie while rubbing my hard belly..so many things we talked about..He listened and I shared every single feelings I had with him..We had great sharing sessions, did'nt we? :)

And now, I'm teribbly missing him..I miss his presence..He left me alone..and I am soooo alone now..I miss having him with me..we were 'we' last time..and now I'm back to 'I' again.. :(

Alfie, tonight I'm gonna sleep with you sayang..I know you'll be there.. :)

Missing you and loving you..always..

Love is when..

Love is when you look at the person’s eyes but you can see her heart..

Love is when you touch her fingers but you feel like touching her soul..

Love is when with a simple ‘hello’ it could brighten up your day..

Love is when with just a smile, it creates a whole new joy in your heart..

Love is when being apart from each other is like the most torturous punishment ..

Love is when without her voice, your life feels empty..

Love is when with her presence, your life seems so perfect..

Love is when without her around, you feel like something is missing..

Love is when you feel excited even to share about the smallest topic..

Love is when, her words seem so right to your ears..

Love is when, her laughter can lifted up all your sadness..

Love is when with just a hug, she takes away all your headache..

Love is when you can’t live without her..

Do you love someone?

Do you love someone if you keep hurting her?

Do you love someone if you keep ignoring her?

Do you love someone if you could just dumped her as you please?

Do you love someone if you would only find her when you feel like having a companion?

Do you love someone if for you she is selfish?

Do you love someone if you could say nasty things to her?

Do you love someone if easily you could lose temper and shout at her?

Do you love someone if you do not even care to know whether she’s fine or not?

Do you love someone if you do not even remember her important appointment?

Do you love someone if you could just leave her while she’s in pain?

Do you love someone if you choose to pay no attention to her feelings?

Do you really love that someone???

Is that really love?