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Hi..

It has been a while kan..I have been good,bad,wild,innocent,sad,happy,sweet,fierce, afraid,brave,empty,lonely,contented,lazy,energetic,spirited,emotional,numb,selfish,
friendly,stubborn,passionate,cold…

There is no specific tajuk that I want to share today..just some words,thoughts in my mind..so expect nothing from this..could just be a waste of ur time..

Today, I am feeling so empty..my heart just sank when I listened to some old songs just now, my eyes just filled with tears when I looked at one little toddler excitingly having his ice cream..my smile turned sour when I saw a couple holding hands with big smiles on their faces..wat’s happening to me?

Sometimes..I want everything to stop, so that I can scream and laugh, and smile and cry at the same time…and turn back the time and change everything.. BUT change to wat? I don’t know..i really don’t know.. should I change myself, my expectation, my hope, my dream?

And where is miracles? When can I have my miracle..why do miracle happens to others..and not me? Or I already got them, but I didn’t realize it? Is this called ungrateful? Is it wrong not to feel enough?

Im just tired I guess, to be feeling and to be thinking of all these…yeah..maybe…

I am just very tired.